current dilemma

I kind of have a lil prob deciding whether to join our batch's cheering squad or not. I've been cheering for 2 consecutive years already. I dunno why I'm not havin' fun anymore. Course I wanna be part of something in our Sports Fest on October. Seems like our batch has much to offer since cheering practice has already started. There's more sacrifice and effort now as compared to our preparation last year.

I went home last friday at about 11 in the eve coz of the practice and my dad got mad at me for staying out late. I told him we're gonna be finished by 9, turned out we're done quarter to ten! At first he asked me to quit but then with a lil persuation, he let me in again. Whew! I'm having trouble about the schedule of practices. How am I supposed to have fun if almost all of my vacant days were so occupied with cheering practices!? UGH! Hate the thought! And my body's effin hurting! As in all of my muscles, literally from my neck to my leg muscles. I Did something really stupid last friday. Came to the practice late,they've already began, so I started the stretching thing all by myself. The choreo asked me to do crunches. I thought he said 50! So i did 50! My friend told me, its only 15! LOL! One more stupid thing, instead of using my abdominal muscles, I used my neck muscles! I strained it and its like my head is gonna blow! I almost puked! Now I'm a total mess. The meds aren't working to somehow ease the pain. It's so hard to move! ugh!

Another thing is.. okay.. I'l keep it to myself. This reason affects why I'd rather not go to the Intramurals and stay in Zambales instead. T_T. Well, can't sleep. What am I gonna do?Hmmm.

eclipse

Shocks! Didn't realize that I haven't blogged for so long! LOL! Been busy in school. School drives me crazy. So much to do! So lil time! Lol again. I told myself that I'm gonna finish reading eclipse a month ago, but then it was only last week that I did finish reading it. The story is nice but Bella... ugh! Bella is such a flirt. Ok, I'll shut up. Edward honey (lol) is so gentle and decent while Jacob is funny and sometimes impolite. No wonder Bella fell in love with both of them. Why can't two personalities combine? Its a package. But good thing Bella only chose one. Coz she has to choose only one. There's always a winner and a loser. Anyway i'd rather she select Edward but some of my friends prefer Jacob in Breaking Dawn. Wonder why. Anyway, I'm excited bout Breaking Dawn. I might buy my own book next week. Yey!

Sad news

Remember when I was talking bout the mom who almost died coz of giving birth? The mom who had her uterus removed? She's already dead. Two days after her delivery, she didn't survive anymore. It was so frustrating and gloomy to hear such news as that but life is life. We don't own our lives. We cannot even predict when our time to die will be. I pity her kids especially her new baby. I do hope the blame won't be put on her.

DR-CHA

For the past week, from July 28-31, my duty was at the Delivery Room - Charity of UERMH. I was not so excited to be there unlike when I was at the Nursery -Cha. Dunno why, maybe coz I prefer taking care of newborns instead of watching the moms give birth. Our major task there was to accomplish 5 cases of handled and assisted births. Since there weren't plenty of women who gave birth, I had only one assisted case. It was the first time that I actually saw a woman labor and deliver a baby. Me and my female groupmates were like "Omg! I don't wanna get pregnant anymore!". It was soooo painful! Really! Life's unfair! UGH! Every woman has a menstrual period and experiences dysmenorrhea. We get pregnant for nine straight months and then we give birth. Well, that's life. Who am I to question life? Those women who give birth at DR-CHA were not lucky enough to have spinal column anesthesia because they were at the charity area. All of the deliveries we had witnessed were Normal Spontaneous Deliveries because all the Ceasarian deliveries were done at the Operating Room and DR-Pay. My favorite part of the delivery is during baby out and the part that I hate the most is when the perineum is cut and is stitched back.

There was a time when we had a patient who almost died coz of giving birth. After the baby and the placenta were out, she had severe uterine bleeding which lead to severe blood loss. She was so toxic that the physicians decided to remove her uterus. Lucky for her, she had 2 living children because she can never conceive again. Ever. I realized that our moms really had a had time carrying us in their wombs and giving birth to us. I cannot deny the fact that in the future, one day, Im gonna get pregnant too. We should not only celebrate our birth but also our mothers' survival.