my never

I can't sleep yet. Finished reading Breaking Dawn two nights ago. It is an okay book but I think something's lacking in the end. Dunno what it is. For me, the "Burn the Book" issue doesn't really apply because they look on the negative aspects rather than the positive ones. It is indeed sort of a sensual book. At first, I was disappointed with how their honeymoon was stated abstractly in one sentence! lol! Not until I read the preceding part. Then i realized that their "honeymoon act" should not be further elaborated. Minors are reading it too! At least we were given ideas about what had happened that night. I do not abhor Bella anymore especially because things fell into their right place at the right time in the book (especially for Bella and Jacob) though it was exaggerated. I'm not used to sleeping at night without reading something. Good thing Stephenie Meyer posted the first 12 chapters of Midnight Sun. I was intrigued with Stephenie's Concert series then I found this beautiful song that really melts my heart whenever I hear it. I believe this song is exactly for Jacob Black and the story behind it is great -- fate.

MY NEVER - Blue October

Will you think about me,
in time?
It's never my luck,
So never mine.
I wanna say your name,
But the pain starts
again,
It's never my luck,
So never mine.

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn't my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a summer salt.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven.

Will you wait for me,
In time,
It's never my luck,
So I'll say: never mine.
And i lost a lot of what i
never expect to ever
return
I tend to push it 'till the pushing turns from
hurting to burn,
I always take them to the place they always wanted
to go,
Then end up dancing 'round
this clown commands,
applause at a show...

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn't my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a summer salt.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven
heaven,
inside her heaven,
heaven

And i could only dream of you and sleep,
but i won't see sunlight again,
i can try to be with you , but some how i'll end up just losing a friend,
And i can only reach for you
relate to you,
I'm losing my friend...
Where did she go?
where?

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn't my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a summer salt.
And that doesn't happen to me
I've never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven
I stood outside her heaven(3x)

Will you let me into your heaven?