current dilemma

I kind of have a lil prob deciding whether to join our batch's cheering squad or not. I've been cheering for 2 consecutive years already. I dunno why I'm not havin' fun anymore. Course I wanna be part of something in our Sports Fest on October. Seems like our batch has much to offer since cheering practice has already started. There's more sacrifice and effort now as compared to our preparation last year.

I went home last friday at about 11 in the eve coz of the practice and my dad got mad at me for staying out late. I told him we're gonna be finished by 9, turned out we're done quarter to ten! At first he asked me to quit but then with a lil persuation, he let me in again. Whew! I'm having trouble about the schedule of practices. How am I supposed to have fun if almost all of my vacant days were so occupied with cheering practices!? UGH! Hate the thought! And my body's effin hurting! As in all of my muscles, literally from my neck to my leg muscles. I Did something really stupid last friday. Came to the practice late,they've already began, so I started the stretching thing all by myself. The choreo asked me to do crunches. I thought he said 50! So i did 50! My friend told me, its only 15! LOL! One more stupid thing, instead of using my abdominal muscles, I used my neck muscles! I strained it and its like my head is gonna blow! I almost puked! Now I'm a total mess. The meds aren't working to somehow ease the pain. It's so hard to move! ugh!

Another thing is.. okay.. I'l keep it to myself. This reason affects why I'd rather not go to the Intramurals and stay in Zambales instead. T_T. Well, can't sleep. What am I gonna do?Hmmm.